Where do I even begin to formulate the multitude of thoughts that are passing through my brain at this very second. I can't. My mind is a mess and less than made up. I wish that there were easy answers to the circumstances, however all I'm met with are questions upon questions. My mind is screaming at me, and in the midst of that my stomach feels as though it's being pulled out through my nose. Everything in me wants to run. Everything screams run. But what do I do? Is that the answer. Abandon ship when circumstances are hard and completely out of my control? But this... this is something that I would never imagine to occur. Something that one never expects. Why can't things in my life be normal? Sometimes I wish I could live in the mountains, as a hermit and escape this roller coaster ride called life, cuz in all honesty motion sickness does not describe what I'm feeling right now.... it's worse.... where do I even begin... I wish the answers were simple. I wish that there were actually answers... instead my head and heart collide and I don't even know where to turn.