God's been doing soooo much in my life this past couple of weeks. I've been ripped in two emotionally....and have discovered that grades and school dont really matter when a person you love is in trouble and needs your help. And even though my instincts were to pick up and run and rescue her God told me to wait....and give her back to Him. I'm talking about my sister. She's been really depressed lately....to the point of where I dont really know what stupid decisions she might make. I've been worried every second...of every minute...of every day for the past 2 weeks....but as I sat in a chapel service 4 days ago God said "Sasha how can you help her if you yourself are dry and broken?" I cried.....for a while...and as I did something broke...I felt lighter...my yoke had been lifted...and I had let God in.....

I've also learned the importance of prayer....when I had nothing else to lean on....and nowhere else to turn...I prayed....when there were no word that I could offer to ppl all I asked is for them to pray....I know that deep down...God has heard my cry....and I'm in awe....

I've also been wondering about my future...and am asking myself where God wants me in the fall. I'm 7 courses away from having my second degree....7 courses that I can take through correspondence and go anywhere in the world....I'm waiting on God for that one tho....

Most of all....I'm being reminded time and time again that I need to give my struggles over to God....and give them to Him...fully and completely....I feel comfortable when I'm in control...but slowly and painfully I'm learning that it's not about me....it's about Him and His glory.....