I'm frustrated and can't sleep. Stupid choices have consequences. Can somebody remind me of that the next time I decide to make a stupid decision. Things woulda been so much easier without this to add to the pile... and now! HA! What a joke. I'm frustrated not only by my stupid decisions but also by the things that God is so clearly pointing out to me. Things make sense. Complete and total sense. And then.... doubt, choice, uncertainty invade either side and still this stupid battle is left unfinished. I don't want to fight anymore. I want to give up... I don't want to pay the price. But I know that if I didn't do it now I would be regretting it for the rest of my life. So the optimistic side of me tries to smile and convince myself that this short time will be worth it in the long run.... regardless of what the realistic side has to say.