I've never been so scared in my life.
I just sit here continuously praying
asking God to rescue me from this...
give me the strength to endure....
and rest in Him.
I've never been so unwilling
to want to take another step
into the unmarked territory.
I don't want to look around me
and see the smiles on the faces
of him and her
and you
as everything seems all pulled together.
And the usual places that I find comfort
have seemed to escape me
and I'm left sitting here alone
with myself
and the Big Guy
and it feels as though we are in a silence war
and we're not talking for whatever reason.
I don't have the answers
that I usually am so quick to find
and I can't seem to find them as I search
So as I'm expected to figure this all out
I'm throwing in the towel
cuz no matter who's not talking to Who
I can't do this
not by myself anyway.