So much craziness in my life right now.  It's good.  Change is good and healthy.  It feels like it's about time.  As though I've been living in limbo for the past year waiting for open doors, waiting for an opportunity to come along.  I'm scared, I'm not going to lie, but I don't feel like I'm doing a bad thing I feel like this is right.  I feel at peace.  And  it feels valuable to me because it's a decision that I'm being backed in doing.  That may seem cheesy or shallow, but the way people responded when I made other decisions 2 years ago makes me take a second glance at things because I saw how that ended up. 

I'm in love.  It's not some fake, shallow feeling that comes and goes.  It's solid.  It's there when I fall asleep and when I wake up.  It's always on my mind.  It's real.  It's crazy to me how I once thought I knew what the word meant and now I look back shaking my head wondering what in the world I was thinking.  I was young, naive, and thought that certain things would fix themselves.  Never did I think I'd end up where I am, but the hope that's inside of me and the dreams that have been given back to me, I could never wish for anything else.