I'm going to write a novel.  It's going to take a lot of effort, but I'll be able to do it.  One month of pure literary madness.  I'm not sure what to write about.  This adventure seems crazy as it is and never have I developed a character to such an extent.  A novel.  WOW.


I was able to participate in a seminar today.  It felt good to be in a specific "learning" type atmosphere.  Don't get me wrong, when you do what I do you learn something new every single day, but to feel like a student again... I've missed that feeling.  It makes me contemplate future studies once more.  I'd love to still get my Master's.  I'd love to obtain my Ph.D.  It seems silly that the only thing holding me back is money. 


I've heard through the grapevine that my "dad" and his wife are separating.  To sound like the worse person alive, I could really care less.  What bothers me more is that my half sister is going to be staying with him.  She gets to keep him.  He chooses to stay in her life and be her dad.  Ok, I'll stop repeating myself because you get the picture.  She's 15 or 16 now.  She's got everything she's ever asked for.  I wouldn't say that I'm jealous, well maybe I am?  I don't know how to articulate how I'm feeling.  It seems unfair that I had to grow up without ever knowing him and he chooses to stay in her life.  I wonder how one chooses which of his children's life to be in and if he ever wonders how I'm doing.  


Once again I'm left with unanswered questions.  I guess that's the theme of my life.