My eyes hurt over all of the tears cried. Understanding has escaped my mind... and all that's left is the sentence: to know that you know that you know that you know..... who woulda thatought that only one week ago that conversation would be what's getting me through these current circumstances. It's not that I'm worried and not that I'm frieghtened or have changed my mind on what I had previously thought.... cuz that's not even the case. Both mind and heart still know. I've tucked the things that I've been shown in the Secret Place away in this heart of mine.... So why the tears you ask? I'm not even sure myself. The uncertainty in the outcome. The investment. It's all just kinda mangled in there... and as I try to make sense of it all and I try to find reasoning I understand... it's not at all about me... it's about Him... and in the tears I find surrender.....