Sunday, September 06, 2009

you and me and hot air balloons in Australia?

I want to go for a ride in a hot air balloon. There seems to be something magical about the thought of floating way up looking down as a colorful balloon carries you to a destination.

I've been dreaming a lot lately. I think for awhile after everything happened with Josh I lost me. I lost my dreams. I lost my desires. I lost hope. It sounds ridiculous but the minute I made the decision to leave I felt like I was leaving everything I had ever wanted.

I see that it's not really like that. God's been giving me back my hope and my joy again. The possibilities are endless and I see that the only thing that holds me back is me. Really.

I want to one day fly up in a hot air balloon. Yesterday while walking to my bus stop I decided that one day I wanted to go for a ride in a limo. Australia will happen. I want to swim with dolphins and explore the Great Barrier Reef. I've thought of what it would be like to go for one of those canal rides in Italy and see the volcanoes in Hawaii. I want to learn how to skate. I've been thinking about my Master's a lot more lately. I like the idea of school I'm just not sure if I want to do that yet or not. I'd like to study Hebrew a bit more.

All these things are in my heart and mind tucked away for the appropriate time. I share them only because they are things that I could see myself doing with you. Experiences that I want us to be able to treasure together. It might sound stupid but for so long I've known that I want to be along side you as you fulfill your goals and dreams, and if anything I want to help encourage you to follow through with them... but now.... I've got some of my own that I hope you can share with me.

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