I have the ability to control the things that go in my mind.
I can keep you out.
I can force myself to flood my mind with other things.
Happier things….
but in all reality they are only things.
My thoughts I can control….
my emotions I can control….
I can even control the tears that are flooding my eyes
attempting to escape
but I dare not let them.
The thing that I cannot control
is the smell of you that permeates my senses.
I can’t get you out
I can try but you are still here.
I want to be able to say that you are gone
That I have replaced you
But I can’t
I want to……
Trust me I would have a long time ago
But something holds on
It clings to that one last remnant of you
And it will have to stay
Until I can obtain enough courage
To wash my blanket.
I can keep you out.
I can force myself to flood my mind with other things.
Happier things….
but in all reality they are only things.
My thoughts I can control….
my emotions I can control….
I can even control the tears that are flooding my eyes
attempting to escape
but I dare not let them.
The thing that I cannot control
is the smell of you that permeates my senses.
I can’t get you out
I can try but you are still here.
I want to be able to say that you are gone
That I have replaced you
But I can’t
I want to……
Trust me I would have a long time ago
But something holds on
It clings to that one last remnant of you
And it will have to stay
Until I can obtain enough courage
To wash my blanket.
3 comments:
hey sasha baby,
just wanna let you know how proud I am of you. The strentgh you have showen through all this is truly amazing, although I know you feel so stressed and what not, trust me i'm right there with you, but hold on we will pull through this together
Sash, draling its ok...its GOING to be ok! Look back to the blog you wrote about on the 1st episode of Grey's Anatomy! Sometimes, we just have to lay on the ground and feel, its where healing begins! *hugs sasha* See you in a coupple of days! Be blessed bleach buddy! *muah*
Dawn I dont want to feel...it's feeling that got me into this....you dont know how hard it is to not drop everything in my life and run....
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