I've been sitting for day's attempting to put together a series of incoherent thoughts that I can't even begin to articulate to myself let alone the rest of the world. It's been a long week. I'm so far behind in school, I'm drowning, and as I attempt to produce paper after paper I have been lost in the reason as to why I'm even here. Well...maybe not lost....just misplaced it? Ok...maybe I've shoved it into a closet with no intention of pulling it out anytime soon.
You know what I love most? When you feel so dang far from God....but yet you aren't cuz you can see His hand in EVERY aspect of your life. Soooooo much has happened this past week. I've been pushed to re-evaluate the things that I believe. I've been tested and challenged in my abilities to open up and share the contents of this dark and lonely heart. I've had to reveal pieces of me that I never thought that I would be able to. I swear I was suppose to be harmed but was saved from that....
There has just been moment after moment of God's hand intervening and pruning, His sculpting and refining. I've found passion's that He's given to me and I've never really cared to explore them as options before. The most important thing that He's done has been making me understand who "Sasha" is in the context of His Grace and Love...and how that no matter how unwise the decisions are that I make...and how much I stumble and fall He is there holding my hand waiting until I want to get back up and give it another shot.
So you know what....my grades might crap out this semester....and I might be so far behind I feel as though I'm drowning in a sea of papers....and I might not "feel" as though God is here....but i know that He is....I just have to look around and inside to see what He's doing.
"I was with you in that valley...and up upon that hill, so take just one more step infront of you for I am with you from step to step...you're not alone." ~NEEDTOBREATHE
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