The youth took a trip to Edmonton today to see the little girl I posted about who was in the accident 3 weeks ago. The whole trip up I was so nervous. I didn't know what to think or feel or even anticipate, so all I could do was pray. We got the the children's hospital and we all waited around for a bit till Des was awake and then 2 by 2 we went in to see her. Steph and I were the 3rd couple to go in. I held her hand not even knowing what to expect. I knew that it was going to be hard....but when I saw Des' mangled little body it was sooo hard for me to stay strong. She's barely talking...so she just mumbled a lot and her actions were uncorrdinated and awkward...but through it all that little girl hugged me. That's all that she could do. She was broken and beaten and didn't look the same as I knew her to be....but her heart was still the same.
I couldn't find words to say and I glanced at my sister who almost started to cry and I had to leave because it became to difficult for me. I walked out bawling my head off....trying to be strong for the youth....but I couldn't hold it in. God has already done an amazing work in that little girl...she wasn't suppose to live....she wasnt suppose to talk yet or walk yet....she's baffeling Drs left and right.....but to still see her in that position killed me. It tore me up inside. It's hard to think that she could have looked worse then that, but I know that she's come sooo far and is going to be healed of everything sooner then any body would have thought.
I think that the worse thing was to have the last memory of the converstation we had in my head. Her little motor mouth going a mile a minute and I'm the only one who can communicate just as fast with her and understand her as well. Her hair was curly and it looked sooo pretty. But.....the little girl I saw in that bed wasn't my Des.....I could see through the outward appearance to her heart and knew that it was her...but my eyes were fooled. My heart breaks for that little girl. I want nothing less then to see her restored to even better then what she was before the accident. I can't wait till we can laugh again....and talk about things that other people can't understand....and to see her in church praying for people who she doesnt even know because that little girl has the faith to know that she can move mountains with her prayers.......I can only pray that we can have that faith for her in a time when she can't have it for herself.
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Amen for little Des! Its hard when you see so much pain, so much hurting, for someone so wonderful to go through something like that rips at your heart... i FIRMLY believe that this little one is going to be FULLY restored! Its times like these that we recieve the tinniest glance as to what it was like for God and Jesus! That love, its for you, its for me and it definatly is for little Des! Be blessed!
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